Back in motion!

I mentioned previously that I hoped life could resume something like normality in early March. I’m extremely grateful that so far, that does seem to be the case. It’s going to take me a little time to get everything moving again, since so many different projects all stalled from lack of attention–and not only writing projects. But I’m feeling optimistic!

So optimistic that I’ve begun to release the first chapter of the new Moonblood adventure, Return, as of this past Friday. That may not have been the wisest plan while the adventure itself is still incomplete, but at this point, 38k words into it, I doubt it’s going to involve any really major changes in the earlier chapters while I’m hammering out the later ones. Since the location, which is near the Garden of Umako that they visited previously, is very vaguely West African, I admit to feeling a bit nervous about possible accusations of cultural appropriation or related racism. One person’s “cultural appropriation” is another person’s “inspired by” and it’s not always a matter of insider vs outsider.I just can’t stand the thought, however, of the entire Moonblood world of Evanir, or at least the large continent our heroes wander, being an endless series of loosely medieval western European cultures, so I guess I’ll just have to hope for the best.

Overall, while looking back through the earlier adventures to remind myself of relevant information, I haven’t been entirely happy. As you’ll see if you looked at my main site, my usual format is the novel, generally one of substantial size. My work is, invariably, all about the characters and bringing them to life. To tell you the truth, I usually have only a very vague idea of what a new novel is going to be “about” since I create the characters (which can be a more difficult task than a non-writer might think) and then drop them somewhere to see what happens. Sooner or later, often thousands of words later, I spot something that looks like a plot and start to angle in that direction. I don’t know how many pros would consider it professional, but it’s a lot of fun and it means I know my characters very well. Usually I then put it aside for several months before editing it. Thanks to one person taking time, I now know how to edit the resulting mass of words into something coherent and consistent, though I generally keep a bit more of the “character development” material than conventional wisdom calls for. The thing is, none of this applies to Moonblood.

With Moonblood, I tried something new. I took a handful of very old characters (Neoma, Kieran, Tyrel, and Madoc have been around since I was in high school, and Kaveri nearly as long) and reimagined their world and their lives. The various adventures aren’t really stand-alone. They follow a sequence, and description of characters and all tends not to be repeated. They are, however, extremely compressed. Places where I would have included a scene showing something, I’ve summarized it into a paragraph before getting on to the next big event, trying to keep the pacing fast and something immediately interesting in each individual post (and not always succeeding). Some of the less-direct character interaction scenes that I’d have included in a novel have been cut or never written, and as a result, there are more places where I’m telling the reader about the characters instead of letting the characters demonstrate. Despite that, chapters are repeatedly broken into 2 or 3 posts to bring them to manageable size. I’m also finding things that I probably would have fixed or changed with more time to revise. I think I have to consider myself poorly suited to writing serial fiction. That shouldn’t come as too much surprise, since my short stories are few and far between. If an idea or, more often, a group of characters is interesting enough for me to do two or three thousand words, then it’s probably interesting enough that I’ll want to explore it or them in much more depth.

Which means that once I finish Return, I am going to take a more deliberate break from this particular project. At some point, between other writing projects, I plan to seriously revise it from a different approach. Instead of treating it as web fiction, I’ll consider it the rough draft of a novel of sorts with an unusual internal structure, and see what happens. I think it will give me the room to flesh out the characters the way they deserve.

That said… I do have one old but rather good idea that would be hopeless as a novel but might someday work in serial format… so who knows?

While this has been all about Moonblood so far, that isn’t the only thing I’m doing. Leaving the overall arc unresolved has been nagging at me, so it became the first thing to pick back up. Lamia‘s revised re-release is coming up, I hope before May. Once that is done, that’s it for my earlier novels, the ones that I previously finished and put on my old site essentially expecting only friends to see them, generally after years being kicked around and re-written and taken apart and stitched back together, and everything from there on is shiny-new and made from whole cloth, so to speak. (I really should write something about the difference, someday soon.) I’m hoping to get Shaman released by June. I’ve had requests for print versions of books, though that’s only available for Yin-Yang currently, so I need to get that sorted out. (That project costs a bit, since I have to buy test copies, and the household budget is tight… but I’ve had a few voluntary payments for ebooks, which I think will cover it.) I think I’m going to re-issue Renegade with the introduction, explaining its history, at the end, in hopes of scaring off fewer people–although I do find it interesting, and probably indicative of current demand, that the urban fantasy with expressly LGBT content has sold 4 times as many as the other-world fantasy that I can’t really tag LGBT. And… all the others, novels and blog posts, waiting in the wings for me to get my feet back under me and get back to work.

Since my household is now in a new and safer apartment that humans and felines consider an enormous improvement, the health and other crises seem to be winding down, and spring is in the air, getting back to work is definitely a high priority. Writing isn’t just something I do, it’s a central part of who I am, and a stretch of several months with only a small amount of sporadic writing is difficult. While I’m not attracting large numbers of readers, I am attracting a few, and given the huge amount of time and effort that goes into polishing a novel for release, it’s good to know that they do interest people. I have my fingers crossed that the LGBT urban fantasy will appeal to people, but I have too much fun to give up doing the occasional other-world fantasy!

Novel Release: Renegade

renegade-ebook-200It took a while, and there were several distractions, but Renegade is now officially available!

It’s as close to a heterosexual romance as you’ll ever see from me, which really is not all that close. I am, however, extremely fond of this novel, in many ways more so than the more “serious” ones. Kisea has a lot to say about fear and its consequences. And there’s a reason why the dedication says:

For everyone who has ever been certain that the world has no place in it for them,
and those who help to create a place.

Currently, however, it’s available only on my own site.

Why? Because the attempt to upload it to Smashwords proved, yet again, to be a massive exercise in thump-head-on-desk frustration. A novel is uploaded as a doc file, and the automatic system called the Meatgrinder spits it out in various file formats, like epub and mobi and pdf. Well… following instructions meticulously and to the letter does not necessarily mean that you get the result you want. Worse, the attempt to diagnose what in a doc file is causing undesirable results in the epub and so on is just about impossible. Honestly, I wouldn’t bother downloading, even for free, anything that looks as unprofessional as what comes out, and that includes my two previous releases. I am trying to decide whether it’s actually worth it, essentially just for the distribution, and at the moment, I’m leaning in the direction of, “No, it isn’t.” I know enough HTML and CSS that it’s actually easier to create the epub myself and convert that to mobi than to spend hours, if not days, in a battle with the Meatgrinder. In theory, I could then upload the epub to Smashwords, since that’s the only other format they allow uploads in, but then I’ll still have to give them a doc version to convert into the other formats, and I’m back at square one.

So, right now, Renegade is available in nice clean pretty pdf, in two sizes, on my writing site, and I’ll be adding epub and mobi formats as quickly as I can. Budget allowing, I’ll look into a print-on-demand version of Renegade when I do Black Wolf‘s, which I hope will be soon. I may also start looking into other options. For the record, Amazon is not a possibility, since I have personal objections to it that I won’t bother getting into.

Until then, I hope you’re forgiving enough to put up with pdf or home-made epub and mobi, for the sake of a story that surprised me when I wrote it!

Looking for test readers! (Shaman)

NEED NOVEL TEST READERS!!!

I expect to have “Shaman” ready for my victims, er, beta readers, by Monday – I’m just finishing up one last scene that I realized needs to be in there. If you’re interested, and if I have some idea who you are (I don’t know who reads this blog, but for test readers, sorry, I prefer to send my unpublished work to people I know), email me or use the contact form or reply here in the comments so I know and I can send you links to the files when I get it done. (I generally do pdf, but will do others.)

You can find a more detailed description on the Shaman page, but here are the key points. It takes place in another world. The main character, Vixen, is a transgender shaman and healer. Her best friend Dayr is a shapeshifting puma. They go on a journey to save a man who was important to Vixen before she effectively died as a man and found a new life as a woman.

** Above all, please note the trigger warning at the end of the description! **

I’m hoping to have this officially released late this year, so… is September first a reasonable goal for finishing? I can be flexible if something comes up and delays you or if that’s too fast, but I find that having a target date helps a lot. :-)

My usual speech to test readers:

I don’t have specific questions. My various readers have varied skills and notice different things. This should be pretty clean, so if you notice ytpos or horrendous grammar (keep in mind that there are times when my grammar gets a bit idiosyncratic for the sake of effect), feel free to tell me! Any inconsistencies in the content, anything that strikes you as implausible, anything that you don’t feel was explained properly, anything you feel just doesn’t work… pretty much whatever your personal thoughts are while you’re reading it. Let me get inside your head and see how it looks to someone who hasn’t been living, part-time for a very extended period, within this world! Anything you think does particularly work for you is also useful, not because I’m fishing for compliments (but hey, can’t deny it feels good to know it’s enjoyed), but because it gives me information to use in the future.

Given how valuable test readers are, I wish I had a useful way to say thank you beyond… thank you. Between the household budget being tight and the fact that I’m releasing these priced very low (I can sympathize with those who have little money to spend!), I can’t do appreciation gifts beyond free copies via Smashwords or email in your format of choice. If I can find a way at some point in the future, I’ll be sure to do so, I promise. I’ll also include a thank-you page, as usual, so make sure you tell me how you want your name to appear (if at all).

Novels and Serials

Two posts in one, more or less!

Black Wolf, the novel

Wow, I can’t believe I didn’t do a post here when Black Wolf was officially released on Smashwords!!! Of course, I spent a large part of that day re-uploading it, trying to make the inexplicably cranky formatting  behave itself, and I desperately hope that it’s now doing so for readers. I have to admit to walking away that evening not wanting to think about it any more for a day or two. So, belatedly:

Black Wolf is officially released, as of Hallowe’en!!! For info on how to get a copy for yourself, drop by here: http://prysmcat.com/black-wolf/

Now Yin-Yang isn’t sitting out there all by itself! And there’ll be a third sibling for them this spring, if all goes as planned – an other-world fantasy, rather than another urban one.

Moonblood, the serial

Now, finishing a novel leaves a hole, a space that’s full only of potential: what shall I work on next? The fastest way I know to sabotage myself is to choose based on what I can complete the most quickly, because I’ll lose interest in it rapidly. However, there are a few projects that were previously released here and have been removed for revision before official publication, and they do have some claim on being near the top of the list. With Lamia still in limbo (I seem to find more that I’m unhappy with every time I open the file, even though I adore the characters and it has several of my favourite scenes I’ve ever written), that pretty much leaves Moonblood.

Moonblood’s a bit of an odd one, though. It’s not really a novel. It’s a set of characters having adventures in another world, each of which is largely complete in itself, though the first few do have an overall loose arc. Some of those adventures are fairly substantial at 20k+ words. Some are much shorter. It was intended to be open-ended, potentially able to go on indefinitely, swapping through the characters that part ways, have separate adventures, and recombine in varying combinations as time (quite a lot of time) passes. I have considered turning the part that encompasses the arc into a collection, in ebook and print-on-demand forms, and I still probably will. But… between now and then, I think I’m going to try something different.

Moonblood is going to be released in serial form, on a blog sister to this one. See here for where to find it! Continue reading

The Value of Encouragement

I mentioned last time that something interesting happened while I was working on the revisions for Black Wolf.

This needs a little backstory, so here we go with a flashback scene.

Go back twenty years. I finished the first complete version of Black Wolf (then, the full title was Black Wolf, Demon Wolf – I got tired of typing that). It wasn’t my first novel, but we don’t talk about the first two; this was the first one I had hopes for. A very good friend and mentor, a local mystery author, read it for me and gave me her thoughts. She also heard that a Canadian fantasy author, Charles de Lint, was Writer in Residence in Ottawa, a rather larger city than ours, and that he would read work sent to him and send it back with his thoughts. What she didn’t discover from her source was that, quite reasonably, one was only supposed to send the first 100 pages or so. We sent the whole thing. Oops.

He was kind enough not only to read the full thing, but to say some very encouraging things and write me a rather long letter breaking down his observations and suggestions. He also offered to meet with me to discuss it. So, in May of 1995, my father gave me a ride to Ottawa (I was 21, and I never did get the whole driving thing) and I spent a very instructive afternoon. I was at least as shy then as now, and I was nervous, and I remember I started to giggle a couple of times at comments that were meant to be serious, but I also remember that he was very patient. Between his letter and that discussion, I learned the fundamentals of how to take what I had written, this wonderful ecstatic creative outpouring of raw material, and look at it in a whole new way, so that I could work it into something not just good, but much better than good. Continue reading